I suddenly have an urge to start writing on this thing. Let me get this straight...I write on here and you folks read it and I am able to maintain communication with hundreds of people? (Not that I have HUNDREDS of friends - my head isn't that big - but I figure that if you see something in my words that inspires you to try something new, treat someone differently, or look at life in a different way and you want to share it with someone, it very well may be read by hundreds of people.) And I think that's cool.
I wanted to share a story with you. (Now this thing is weird because I don't know if now I start typing to my computer or you guys...the HUNDREDS of you) ;-) Alright...tonight I was opening a piece of mail. It was from Blue Cross/Blue Shield (my health insurance provider) and when I looked at it, I had one of those "OH, MY!" type feelings. These feelings come when you see a bill from someplace that you owe hundreds of dollars to or your student loan statement or your child's report card...either way, we've all felt it. So the place my mind went was one of deep self introspection. I thought it was a letter telling me I had a terrible disease. FIRST of all, I know they don't send you letters telling you you have a terrible disease...I know they would have the decency to tell you to your face. But my mind went there. It told myself I had some deadly disease...and I believed it. I went through the thoughts of what I might possibly think if I found out I was dying? Who would I miss most? What would I really miss doing? Is there something I wish I had done? I then thought to myself..."If it did say that I had some terrible disease and I had to die...would I be fine with it?" By fine with it I don't mean welcoming death, I just mean being OK with it. Knowing we all die eventually but that I would be ok with the person I was and the contribution I'm making to the world, I thought, "I'd be at peace if I had to face death." I'd be ok dying, knowing that I'm doing the best I can with what I got. And then I thought...I'M GOING TO AFRICA!!!
That deserves a huge OMG!
Yes...I'm going to Africa. Who do I think I am? Why? I ask myself all these questions. And you know what I say? I say "Why not?!?" Why not do this now? See this now? Experience this now? Help these people now? Bring love to the lives of children now? Why not now? If any of you do read this, I'll tell you that I'm so completely excited to do this. To see these sights and feel these feelings. I get goosebumps just thinking about it and I'm sorry more of you can't experience this with me...you can, you know. ;-)
I'm going to head to bed now, but I hope this was an ok post and you all keep in touch with me while I'm gone through this ingenious thing. It's just easier to tell you things on this than emailing. And I have to think...MORE PEOPLE CAN ACCESS IT THIS WAY! Because I want you to share my thoughts, myt words...maybe this could become a more inspiring version of PEREZHILTON.COM. Cuz...you know we're all reading that. Well...maybe just some of us. (blush.)
Please read often, And let me know what you think. Talk to me.
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I think that it's great that you are donig this. The going to Africa and the writing everything in a blog. I hate writing these things too, but I have found it very soothing to read other people's thoughts. it makes you think about things you may never think about if it wasn't for that person experiencing it. I am too much of a coward to ever leave and go somewhere out of my comfort zone so for people who can manage that like you Bobby, PROPS!! I cannot wait to read more about your journey. I think this will be such an amazing experience for you, you may not be able to change the world, but it will change your world. sometimes, that's all it takes to get the ball rolling.
I hope all is well.
miss you and love you lots.
ok so this blog of urs will give me one more thing daily to check besides facebook and myspace. I am jealous and envyous of the journey you will be making. i cant wait to hear about all your experiences and see all the pictures you will have!!!
<3 miss
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